Its been awhile since i went on here, and i read it last night after a year of not being on. I read allllllllllllllll of my bullshit complaining about my boyfriend. AND MAN does time go fast. haha. I have changed so much and for the better. I moved out [ kicked out] of my house and now live with my best buddy aka bother. I have a job now! Hallelujahhhhhh . I have sisters [Tivoli Sistas] that i always have fun with. Except one of them is going to Flagstaff soon for school :/ i will send letters tho. But other than that, a few months ago my boyfriend broke up with me cause I wasnt doing so good in life so he broke up with me so i could focus on me. Which i didnt take so well, i was depressed for days.But after going out and seeing friends i havent seen in YEARS i realized how much he took away from my life. I wasnt focusing on me at ALL. i never went out i stayed at home with him. I felt suffocated. But NOW, i’m 18 doing my own THING and focusing on me 100% . Even tho he did want to get back together with me after a month of not being with me and seeing how happy i was without him. ;p But it made us stronger in the outcome of all this. Being with someone for 2 years and LIVING with them too, you cant just erase them from your life. But anyways, my parents are not really there for me at all but thats growing up and sometimes you gotta stand on your own. I wish i could fix the relationship with my mom but i tried so hard. Family will always come first.

 I cannot believe we have made it this far. But im glad. I hope we can prove everyone wrong who didnt believe in us. It wouldnt matter anyway cause its just us against the world nowadays. You are my best friend & my boyfriend. & i love that. Somedays we have our very good ups & our horrible downs. But i think all of our ups made us to stay strong. <3

  “People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”- Jim Morson

I’ve realized that all the problems we’ve had only made us stronger…sure we both feel like giving up but when we do we go to each other and everything is okay. Being in your arms makes every little problem go away. Don’t be scared of true love,embrace it when it’s there…

Stop being so fucking dramatic. Like seriously i get that your depressed but you shouldnt just push me away. Im sure your trying to act manly by pushing me away.Your life isnt even that fucking bad. Get ahold of yourself. You have such a better life than me. Do you see me complaining, no. Stop acting like your the only one with problems , news flash, your not the only one…

You cant leave me here without you…:| When i heard the news , i broke down crying. Everytime i go on your myspace, i break down. I mean, how are you suppose to react when the person you love the most, moves in 7 months. Sure its 7 months, but the months go by fast. I wish you never told me…but then again im glad you did. I hate talking about it. Im so proud of you though. You are a working man. I know we can make it through this….<3

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(via duh-knees, shellyxoxo)

I hate them. Especially when you find out that all this time, youve been so clueless. But you cant do anything about it once youve found out. All you can do , is just say to yourself that maybe just maybe youll learn. Sure, everyone has secrets that people hide with lies. But eventually you’ll lie so much to the point where all the truth just falls out. But i guess thats growing up…finding out you cant trust too easy. People will eventually turn out to be the person that they never expected to be.  

P.S Karma’s a bitch, What must come up..must come down & it will hit three times harder to you.